Friday, March 23, 2012

Lenten Journey

Normally people look for things to "give up" during lent.  Chocolate.  Diet Coke.  TV.  Internet.  But sometimes Lent isn't about giving something up.  Sometimes it's about willingly accepting something.

For the last 3 weeks my youngest son has been struggling with insomnia, which means this momma is struggling with it too.  He wakes up between 2 and 3 in the morning with his body running at 150%.  He runs, jumps, rolls, yells and bounces on the exercise ball to get all of his energy out.  Somewhere around 6 am he passes out on the floor or the arm chair and wakes an hour later to officially start his day.   We've discovered that in addition to his sensory and auditory issues he has to try and handle a mood disorder (read bipolar spectrum).  All this resting on the shoulders of a 7 year old boy.  And the Lord has seen fit to call this unworthy mama and my wonderful husband to help carry some of his burden.  Of course I'd LOVE to enjoy a quiet moment without worrying if he's putting a hole in the wall or if the bomb is going to go off again.  Of course I'd love to sleep through the night again, but being the recipient of not only this precious boy but also the Lord's amazing grace...well...I wouldn't trade it for the world. 

O Lord and Master of my life!
Take from me the spirit of sloth,
faint-heartedness, lust of power and idle talk.

But give rather the spirit of chastity, humility,
patience and love to Thy servant.

Yea, O Lord and King!  Grant me to see my own
sins and not to judge my brother (husband, children...);
For Thou art blessed unto ages of ages.  Amen.